I just want to scream. Or pull my hair out. Or, I just don't know, I just want to shut everything out and skip over the next few days.
"Hi. What are you up to tomorrow night. Would you like to come to the rehearsal dinner?"
What sort of world am I in? How in the hell could someone think this is a good thing to ask me? Why does he keep asking?!?
I just can't even breathe. I just want it all to be done. I want my old friend back. I don't want this idiot. I don't understand this person. I don't want to hate him. I just can't believe this is actually happening.
This isn't supposed to be how it works. I don't know why, because I always expect things to go wrong, but I always *knew* it would work out with him. Nothing else ever felt that good. That's why I never gave up. Too many Disney movies I suppose. Doing/being good =/= getting rewards. I hate this.
Just stop hurting. Just stop thinking. Just stop remembering. Just stop.
